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2008-06-01T14:48:00.002+08:00

曲名：知道歌手：郭静专辑：下一个天亮

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她的一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

wht am i to you ?

2008-05-29T11:15:00.002+08:00

lemme ask you one last time .

wht am i to you ?

i don't know , i'm so confused right now .

we'll last .

2008-05-28T15:09:00.003+08:00

yesterday was 1st mth anni for us ! :D
but we gave each other cold shoulder , good or bad ?

nevermind . (:

torrent is my boyf nd xinyi is his girlf .
we'll last . x)

他还是不懂

2008-05-25T12:16:00.001+08:00

他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我

this is how i feel .

pissed off .

2008-05-25T08:46:00.003+08:00

i don't understand .
you said you treated me just like any friend .
yeah , i'm never important to you .
i have no idea how i'm going to say i love you anymore .
everything is so stupid , making me pissed off every night .
since you love your other friends so much , don't ever talk to me agn .
your friends are your everything , i'm just nothing in your eyes .
forget it , i hate you .

later going to work w jolyn nd some others .
i'm so oh my fuck pissed off .

heart nd brain .

2008-05-24T20:58:00.004+08:00

went to work w jolyn initially .
give out flyers , we gave out 1500 altogether .
nd we only earned $27 together nd it has to split into half ! D:
thn we meet leesheng nd went to distribute booklets .
this pay is so much better , is $4.50 per block .
nd th person gave me $5 per block ! :D

throughout th whole working time , i was thinking of baby .
last time , he everyday work thn i disturb him every second .
i must have been such a burden to him , i guess ?

boy , it's only today i realise you occupies not only my heart but also my brain . (:

whtever .
you don't believe me , so be it .
anything , whtever .
i don't want to think about it anymore .
boy , you're pissing me off .
fuck you ! D:

patched .

2008-05-23T18:15:00.003+08:00

patched !
yesterday patched up lers .

baby , i love you . (:

i have fever for like 4 days already . T.T
nd i'm so hungry . T.T

bye .

2008-05-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

BYE .

请在我後悔之前离开我
在我还没有崩溃的时候
不愿意再用深情勒索你的温柔
会有多难过明天再说
会有多难过等明天再说

i need a job .

2008-05-21T21:17:00.002+08:00

baby , i thought for long but to figure out tht i'm still an extra in your life .
sometimes , i wonder , is it tht you really can't reply or is it tht you just simply don't want to reply .
well , i just don't know .

tday went for job interview nd it's kind of alright ?
th job is diff from wht we initially knew .
anyway , we're finding new jobs because tht job doesn't requires us to be thr .
hope th others will manage to find it for us ?
if not we'll be a ~~bar girl~~ , ~~toilet cleaners~~ , ~~prositutes~~ , ~~tuition tchers~~ or anything disgusting . =/
oh well , stop looking forward to it . =xx

arghh .
i played tht game in class nd i was retrenched ! D:
i don't want to be treasurer anymore .
thn thy won't force me to take care of all financial stuff .
blame it on tht tcher for making me th only one in class to take 'o' levels A maths .
but i already dropped it nd zhixian's result is so much better ! D:
boohoo ! DD:

baby baby baby , i miss you so much . <33

huh

2008-05-21T20:48:00.000+08:00

huh...
tomorrow is an important day
wat o
hehe
hope u
happy forever
my good dardar

poor baby .

2008-05-20T21:23:00.003+08:00

poor baby , tday is his first day of college life but he seems so tired .
sort of neglected him these few days .. =/
i'm going to work w jolyn nd maybe leesheng nd maybe mandi ?
oh well , hope it won't be a disaster .
aft all , it's just giving out flyers . =/
thn another job w yihuan which i also not really think i'll be able to get it .
but th pay is really v. good ..
i don't dare to call th person yet lorhs . ><

tmorrow is an important day .
may i be blessed .
i mean we .

baby is mia agn . T.T
don't apologise to me .
it's not your fault anyway .
i was th one tht sort of neglected you . =/

haiyo

2008-05-20T20:00:00.001+08:00

actaully i not purposely no wan online
just i a bit busy
need to tidy my stuff
college thing and so on lo
haiz
soli lo
becoz din comapany u
don angry ok
dardar
haiyo
good luck and take care o

我要把你从我的记忆里删除掉 .
2008-05-19T22:35:00.002+08:00
went out w yihuan from morning to night ! :D
was supposed to go for job hunting but ended up arcade-ing th whole day .
thn out of nowhr , pauyuen appeared ! -.=
ddr-ed nd fooled ard in th arcade . =/
nd guess wh i saw agn !? D:
tht freakening sickening asshole was thr w his friends .
it's not called fate , it's a nightmare .
to be specific , it's my nightmare . =/
nd i met crystal , wh is my pri school friend w huichuen .
wht a small small world . -.=
thn lewis nd dayan .
nd thn baobei's boyfriend , tall tall black black derhs . =x
slacked nd went to kfc to eat at 4pm .
actually was going to chat till 6pm whn i will be able to get into th house .
but we crapped till like ard 9pm ? =="

i dislike her , i detest thm nd i hate him .
her , thnks for backstabbing me infront of your friends .
thm , thnks for letting me know how cruel life is .
him , thnks for showing me how long is forever .

oh well , library tomorrow w yihuan ?
not sure yet , suddenly ..
hais .
i'm so disappointed in her .
cried nd figured out how stupid it is .
let her cont. backstabbing me , i can blame nobody but me .
blame myself for trusting somebody so much .

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我要把你从我的记忆里删除掉 .
. gone been already had i've , gone i'm realise you time th by , late too
. this like be won't life my , me told ever you if
. all at me to nice not were you tht bfore times many warned so was i
. be could person fake how proving for thnks

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jolyn , cheerup ! (:

boring day but great fun .

2008-05-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

went out w yihuan to library . =/
nd acc her to buy kite nd we camwhore-ed .
went to kfc for late lunch cum early dinner nd guess wh we met ?
tht freakening sickening asshole by th name of tang yuan hong nd his friend .
he is oh my fuck short , can ?!
whtever.whtever.whtever
he spoilt my day by his appearance .
nd super duper uber cute yihuan was not right in her mind tday .
she was intending to steal 12 storybooks to read . -.=
thn we made up our mind to buy couple things tgether .
baby , please do be jealous . =/

i feel so sad for th people wh are suffering in china now . :'[

baby is missed ! (:

2008-05-18T14:15:00.002+08:00

we're so not fated to be , i guess .
once i online , your internet goes haywire .
zzz .
your laptop sure does hates me alot .

once yihuan sms me , i'll be heading down to meet her .
actually was going to fell asleep whn th phone vibrated .
going library later , cool ?
i got 7 books to return nd i think 4 already overdue , th other three are my sis's .

baby is missed ! (:

down .

2008-05-18T09:28:00.003+08:00

baby , i'm sorry tht i'm adding to your burden .

i'm just an extra , a replacement for her .
you know her so well , how abt me ?
whtever.whtever.whtever

forget it .
talked a lil while w him but realise we have nothing to talk abt .
having nothing to talk abt is making me feel so down ..
whtever.whtever.whtever

i love baby nd it's true .
my heart is thr for you , i promise .
whn you need someone to be thr for you , i’d be just sitting right beside you . (:

don think like tat ok??

2008-05-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

dardar.
plss don think u r replacement ok
becoz u really not la
gatric ah.
got take medi o not
must take o
ok
promise me
don always think like tat ok
don give me more stress ok
plss.
i no wan cheat u ma

don think like tat ok??

2008-05-17T21:24:00.000+08:00

hihi

gastric .

2008-05-17T20:42:00.002+08:00

whtever.whtever.whtever

i'm just a replacement nd i jolly well know it .

i wanted to blog a long long post .
but i'm having gastric , so byeeee .

nd i'm craving for ciggrates nd beer agn .
i know i shouldn't but i already quitted ciggrates already . =/

confused .

2008-05-17T10:32:00.007+08:00

i hate torrent loo kong yong .

whtever.whtever.whtever
he gives me this feeling tht yuanhong once gave me .
whtever.whtever.whtever
his future don't have a me , only her .
whtever.whtever.whtever
i had enough of jealousy , anger nd sadness .
whtever.whtever.whtever

i'm just feeling so confused now .
carry on flirting w your friends , i don't care already .

i'm just an emotional person .
wh cries whn looking at newspaper , whn being compared , whn being abandoned .
i'm just not th person you want .
i don't want to be just a passerby , can you understand ?

don't sms or talk to me online .
i need some time to sort of my thoughts .
i'll get back to you whn i made up my mind ..

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nd th photos i wanted to post to revenge zhuowen . =/

>

tht's my idiot friend . =/
i got more photos .
but i purposely put those he say he look ugly in nd those he act cute derhs . =x
too bad .
wh tell you don't entertain me .
bleahs ! =P

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nd i found photos tht was taken a long long time ago . (:

taken last year .

this is my beloved kor ! :D
thnks kor for being thr whnever i need somebody to acc me .
though we always disiao each other but we always care for each other no matter wht .
you always call me didi nd i always call you jiejie .
i love you , you love me , we are one big family .. (:

nd this are just sad memories ..
first kiss , but tht's also th stupidest thing i could recall .

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this is such a long long post . =x

last long .

2008-05-16T13:23:00.005+08:00

hmm .
i realise somebody is tgether w th girl i sort of dislike .
whtever.whtever.whtever
nd i hope tht thy will last long .
not because i hope for happiness for tht girl but because i hope for happiness for him .
well , if you don't get wh th he is , thn too bad lurhs . ><

baby is so busy now .
maybe flirting w his collegues ? =/
okay , he's not , he's working .
i'm such an annoyance to him , i guess .
tday got back my result nd it's horrible .
but compared to last year's , it's so much better .
must thnk baby for forcing me to study . =x

combined sciene;
/ chem - 24/50
/ bio - 32.5/50
/ total - 47.5/100
combined humanities;
/ geog - 10/50
/ hist - 20/50
/ total - 30/100
mother tongue;
/ paper 1 - 40.5/70
/ paper 2 - 39.5/60
/ paper 3 -
/ total -
art;
/ total - 60/100
mathematics;
/ paper 1 - 36/54
/ paper 2 - 22/
/ total -
english;
/ paper 1 - 50.5/80
/ paper 2 - 38/60
/ paper 3 -
/ total -

those left blank are wht i don't know .
whtever.whtever.whtever

i miss baby so much . ♥♥♥

you just simply don't know .

2008-05-15T20:40:00.004+08:00

whtever.whtever.whtever
i don't know lurhs .
i just find tht everytime you say we will breakup one day if i cont. to be like this is like threatening me .
i'm just like tht , you should have known it earlier .
tell you wht i have had sacrificed also .
do you know tht i have had to send a msg to my friends thn could i manage to send a msg out to you ?
do you know tht i am scolded every night for being online until 12+ am ?
you just simply don't know .

whtever.whtever.whtever
i should just forget abt this incident .
just decided to vent it on this blog .

baby , believe me .
i love you .

tday chatted w him th whole day long .
quite happy to be able to msg him like mad agn .
but i was quite irritating whn he was working . =/
nd tht stupid idiot zhuowen don't want to entertain me .
hence , i'll post his photos down th next time whn i'm free .
i got to offline now so buhbyeeee ~

you are my baby .

2008-05-15T11:03:00.003+08:00

you say until like tht i also don't know wht to say lers . =/
okay lurhs .
thn all th more i should wake you up everyday .
finally can resume sms-ing you like mad . =xx
nd you're my baby ! :D

nd you owe me ice-cream wors !
hahs .

REMEMBER U ARE MY DARDAR

2008-05-14T19:42:00.003+08:00

dardar.
i can sacrifice for u
becoz ur my gf, my dardar
so i won let ualone one
i will always be u there
although i tire or watever thing
but i oso acc u
u are my dardar u know.............

wait u o dardar

MUACKXXS

torrent's xinyi .

2008-05-14T16:29:00.005+08:00

baby is ♥♥♥ ! :D
was going to call him whn i reached home .
thn i onlined nd i saw him online too !
is not tht i don't want you to call but because i don't have free incoming .
thn i use th phone card also not mine , so nevermind lurhs . ><
if you feel sorry , thn you help me top up whn i'm in malaysia lurhs .
i'll be going thr aft my june holidays w th whole sec3 cohort . =/

baby , this is dedicated to you . (:
i don't know wht i should say .
i know you sleeps at 3am everyday nd usually wakes up at 12pm plus .
but i always call you in th morning .
i remember th first time i called you , you had only slept for 4 hrs .
you seems so tired but you still woke up to fetch my call .
i usually wakes you up whn you're slping .
some other times , you were busy .
i could still vividly remember wht we chat abt bfore we broke up th last time .
th day aft we broke up , we patch agn .
i don't care whn will we breakup but i treasure th time we have tgether now .

aww , baby is online now ! :D

torrent's xinyi . (:

hihi.dardar. i love u

2008-05-14T01:46:00.003+08:00

i know.
i understand
u love me.
but u oso know we can last forever
so i hope u don too serious
becoz i scare will hurt very deep
although i very like u now.
so u take care la

ya lo
i wan call u.
but u ask me don call u lo
i think unfair ma
u waste ur money to call me
but i can't call u
muackxxs............

your torrent

whtever.whtever.whtever

2008-05-13T18:53:00.004+08:00

being always thr doesn't means tht i'm willing to be your pet .
you already pissed me off whn you everytime expect me to be thr w/o even informing me .
so , everything's my fault now ?
so be it , i'm already used to it .
for everything you've done wrong , you just simply push th blame nd say it's her fault .
whtever.whtever.whtever
i can be nice to you , but i can be mean too .
being nice doesn't meant tht i can be bullied .
enough of your lies , i had enough .
freak out of my life nd don't ever talk to me agn .
whtever.whtever.whtever
rumour spreader is detested .

aww . ><
baby is working now , i suppose .
i still got to do my color combination , 6 pieces . -.=
i already left out many things already but th exam paper stated 6 piece of color combination .
so , can't be helped also .
i could only be like a photocopy machine nd draw nd draw . =="

i miss baby .

2008-05-13T16:51:00.003+08:00

whtever.whtever.whtever
called baby in th morning nd chatted for awhile .
i'm missing him like oh my gosh .

i'll be online at ard 9pm for him . (:
i love my baby !

breakups are often , hearthaches are often .
but to meet th one you really love , it's almost impossible .
you're right , we won't last forever .
we're just playing nd playing it right .
i love you , for now .
you'll be part of my memory one day .
baby , i just want to let you know ..

silly girl loves silly boy .
i love you , baby .

th past .

2008-05-12T22:28:00.004+08:00

drawing is a v. good way to keep me occupied .
i will shut my brain nd draw whtever i see .
maybe thn will i truly stop thinking .

i don't understand wht has gone wrong .
th past is haunting me agn .
i walked th route me nd him took th second time we met .
th same route but you ain't thr anymore ..

okay , i should just shut up nd start drawing agn .

emo-licious .

2008-05-12T21:06:00.004+08:00

i'm super duper uber emo-licious now .
i often felt lonliness but i never knew tht lonliness could make me cry .
slacked at th void deck on my own , crying .
i was needing somebody to be thr for me , talking to me .
but thr weren't any .
i felt so miserable .
i suddenly realise tht th whole world has abandoned me nd moved on .
even he is not thr for me , i felt his heart moving on too .
he's going to leave me one day .
i'm forsakened nd left to die on my own .
even th closest friends don't understand .

i'm tired .
i just feel like dying nd not waking up anymore .
waking up everyday is a burden .
can i leave th world ?

i have a boyfriend but i felt just like i don't .

pissed off .

2008-05-12T09:29:00.004+08:00

i'm waiting for baby to online now but ..
freak out larhs .
i'm super duper uber pissed off by his msg .
i will not be online at night for him tonight .
freak ! :(

MY DARDAR

2008-05-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

soli lo
i not purposely offline one
becoz i slept already lo
so....
soli lo
dardar

i oso no wan u leave me

we are always together one
although we not together but our heart is connect to each other

i love u dardar

i love you too .

2008-05-11T18:53:00.003+08:00

zzz .
baby , sorry tht i couldn't reply to you just now .
but whn i could , you're offline already .
maybe we're not fated ? :(

i love you too . (:
nd i will never let you go .

m-u-a-c-k-s ! :D

my love dardar

2008-05-11T03:09:00.001+08:00

hehe
then ok lo
but not our enermies la them.
haiyo
don say till like this la
i love u very much
i wait your photo.
today line dono y like something wrong lo
haiz.
ok lo
dardar u take care lo.
i oso wan sleep d

tired .

2008-05-11T00:44:00.003+08:00

baby , i love you too . (:

hais .
your msn nd my msn are enemies . -.=
whn mine is alright , yours go haywire .
nd whn yours is alright , mine go haywire .

i go to sleep now lers .
i'm so tired by signing in nd out of msn nd also keep on clicking video call w you . =/

2008-05-11T00:42:00.001+08:00

don sad lo
don think too much
i really love u one
dardar

so boring lo i at penang
just can online oli
but very slow
but still need to pay more than hundred a month
haiz
but nvm if can chat with u, dardar

i love u

nothing better to do .

2008-05-10T11:22:00.005+08:00

i got nth better to do .

baby , i felt myself drifting further away from you .
i don't know why but i feel so insecure .
suddenly felt so out of love , don't understand why either .
i can feel you heart but something is telling me it's beating for her .
i hate to admit it but you never fails to make me jealous .
you still love her , right ?
i'm holding on to something i don't even know if it exist .
disappointments whn i check my phone for your messages but thr weren't any .

my love for you will never chnge .
but will yours be kept th same ?

too many things .

2008-05-09T23:05:00.007+08:00

baby finally blogged once . (:
tday sort of neglected baby because i was out th whole day .
many many things happened tday .
firstly , chriscendo send me nd leemei aeroplane .
secondly , my slippers spoilt nd i got three blisters .
thirdly , th stupid idiot pig called zhaoming talk nonsensical things .
forthly , leemei was so emotionally unstable tht yihuan thinks tht she's going to commit suicide .
nd lastly , me nd yihuan found out alot of things , in fact , too many things .

baby , this is for you .

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aww .
i shouldn't be blogging now .
talking to my baby now ! (:

2008-05-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

this blog not oli u
but us one
i love my dardar

whtever.whtever.whtever

2008-05-08T21:08:00.002+08:00

whtever.whtever.whtever
i confirmed tht my parents found out abt us lers .
i'm such a failure , want to hide smth from thm also can't .
baby is registering for his broadband now .

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my super duper baby !
whnever i sms you , you will reply v. fast derhs .
whn i'm bored , you will always be thr .
whn i need someone to tell me tht everything's going to be alright , you'll be thr .
you are always thr whn i need you .
you never fail to make me smile even whn i don't want to .
tht's why i love you so much ! ♥♥♥
you're mine nd nobody could snatch you away . (:

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i will not be online so often .
because i need to start on my art exam nd th final exam is next wed ! D:
i was too busy those few days so i got to finish up everything as soon as possible .
nd i'm busy bball-ing w th FuHua's peeps nowadays . =/
tht stupid Chriscendo make my hands all red nd dirtied my bag .
thn th ZhaoMing keep on showing off his many many earholes . -.=

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buhbyeeee ! :D
i have nth else to blog abt . =x

presents .

2008-05-07T21:29:00.003+08:00

why does this blog seems like my personal blog ?
because baby's broadband is only coming next tues nd he has been using his dad's phone to online .
hence , he will not be able to blog .
can hardly contact him nowadays because my card's IDD call/Global sms left $8.06 .
at first got $100+ but sms nd sms nd sms thn call nd call nd call him .
but it will be worser if i'm living in malaysia .
i sms RM55 sms-ing in 3 days , so in a day , it is ard RM18 nd if it is a yr ?
it will be RM6570 , oh my gosh !
arghh , i want to buy some presents for him nd send it to him .
but i don't know how to send parcels .. ><

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woke up at 11 plus thnks to many many miss calls from no number . sms chat w leemei nd baby thn ate lunch .
was writing my bio notes whn th i-don't-know-his-name called me to go down to hke .
studied from 12pm to 6pm , if i still fail my bio , i got nothing to say .
tht is how my day passed agn .
bio nd chem paper tomorrow ! D:
i don't understand a single thing about chem lurhs . ><

nd baby is online ! :D

it's all my fault agn .

2008-05-06T16:53:00.011+08:00

arghh , fuck .
my mum quarrell w dad thn everything is all my fault agn ?
whtever.whtever.whtever
she pushes all th blame to me , she makes me feel tht i'm th fault to everything .
she nd my dad just simply don't understand me at all .
freak out ! D:

i don't know lurhs .
i'm in a bad mood now because of my mum nd dad .
i really hate to come home , everytime smth goes wrong , it's my fault agn .
nd they can cont. hating me all they likes because i hates them too .

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nd i'm not a dog , not your dog .
you don't rule my life , you are just a bystander .
friends or are you just treating me like rubbish ?
i don't understand why you chnged .
so nice nd sweet you were whn i first met you , but you suddenly became like a bitch out on th streets .
you're always making use of me , i always turn a blind eye to it .
you did almost every single thing tht has dissapointed me ..
i want to trust you but every thing you're doing now dissapoints me .
too true , tht's why it hurts .
i treated you w my best attitude , my utmost love to you but you take it as rubbish .
believe me , i won't let you carry on w your ways .
it's making my life horrid nd disgusted .

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happy bday to you !
happy bday to you !
happy bday to baby !
happy bday to you ! :D
baby , i miss you !

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你的过去我来不及参与 , 可是我保证你的未来里一定有一个我 . (:
m-u-a-c-k-s ! :DD

i ♥ you .

2008-05-04T07:47:00.013+08:00

baby, i ♥ you ! :D

our relationship started on 27o4o8 , broke up on 3oo4o8 nd patched on o1o5o8 .
th reason of our breakup is because you don't believe in me nd think tht i'm just playing you .
i promise you, i would nvr ever play you nd i love you .

i'm always smiling w glee whn you tells me tht you are jealous .
you once told me tht thr is two girls you like , one is me nd th other is a girl you liked for 4 years .
i was so jealous nd afraid tht i cried .
jealous because i'm not your only one nd afraid because you might leave me .

i don't know since whn i started to rely on you so much .
if you're going to leave me one day , i think my life will be meaningless .
my heart loves you nd my brain misses you .
you're my one nd only .
i don't care wht others thinks or says abt us .
i just care wht you think nd say .

cupid arrow struck us . (:
nd i love you , forever nd ever .

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ytd was my 15th bday nd tmorrow is darling's 19th bday ! :DD
aft school , went to kfc to meet yihuan nd leemei .
ate nd headed down to hke .
intended to study , but end up playing bball w leemei whn yihuan left for home .
thn me nd leemei camwhore-ed , because i said i want to camwhore . =x
walked home on my own , feel so lonely w/o yihuan .
but i still got baby to sms chat w me ! :D

i think my dad found out abt me nd baby but he act like he don't know .
maybe he still thinks tht he is th cause why me nd yuanhong broke up ?
i don't even dare to tell him tht we were still together whn he insisted tht we must breakup . =x
6 mths ago , on this v. day , yuanhong left me .
but it's alright because i have my baby . (:

happy bday to me ! (:
nd it's a new chapter to my life .

me nd mummy are th gossip-ers cum camwhore-ers ! :D
first one was off-angle nd i was grinning in th second one . =/

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aww , baby is finally online . ><
buhbyyyyes ! (: